I was shat on yesterday.  while sitting on a bench outside inside hongdae i was studying and splat on my neck and I just knew what had happened.  pretty sick huh?

so i'm studying.  inspired by my teacher who told me yeah unless you change your study habit and want to stay in class with mina and dave you'll have to step it up.  compared to the zero studying I did previous this is good.  real good.  and I'm enjoying my day two of korean studying.  especially when I'll be attending all korean classes, learning about traditional ceramics and using lots and lots of chinese characters I dont know.  bring it.

i'm studying, like if somebody asked me what I studied today i'd say i studied korean, and then I studied graffiti.  this is somewhere i've never touched and I'd like to do some touching.  let this kid have some fun again, in a way that does break the law and lets me have fun and be expressive.  haha am I bad?  maybe a little but i'm young too, i've got a lot to learn.

I bought a new pen yesterday a micro pen to replace my otherwise all dried up one.  i like it very  much.  it moves smoothly on my paper. 

so I didnt mess up the negatives i developed.  this upcoming tuesday i'll be learning how to print individual cuts.  the teacher was
surpised to see me the day after class, i'm here to do work yo!

i studied alone at a cafe, art teacher was like alone?  I want to find a library.  i asked my korean teacher about libraries, shes like namsan is pretty close to yongsan...i was like is it nice?  with implications of me wanting a 15th century italian renaissance building to steal internet from like my dear friend max has the privelage to.  beautiful.

how are you?

i wrote another song today.  this one without words, but it was strange because the thought I had while playing was being moved and expressed through the notes..so this is why blues is so powerful, there guitar plays their feelings.  and i was like hey i wonder if shed like it, then I was like when am I going to see that person again, like when can we even be friends cause this isn't cutting it.  but but but.  i've got my e guitar back in my hands.  the heavy weight pulls on my shoulder with time, its a good heavy.  and it doesnt hurt that I snagged the bow from julias violin, played me a minuet on the low e string haha or what i remember of it. 

but ima about to have a job on monday, serviing and labeling wines.  okay I dig but im quitting if i'm haveing to stumble back home.

i wonder how hannah is?

it didnt help i'm trying to draw a picture of you and like look constantly at a picture of you and pat.  oh well.

but i should grab some dinner this is a strange feeling.  i have to use the restroom though later

as I come home to my cousins place we walk in talking blah blah blah and I come into the living room.  I'm like Josh did you open up these drawers for some reason thinking in my head we left this place clean.  I walk pasts the corner and see the chest wide open the contents scattered all over the sleeping matt.  I'm like what the fuck!  and pastor christian just said not to swear last sunday.  I walk into their bedroom and see laptop cases out open jewelry boxes and scattered pears and smal thangs scattered all up on the bed.  All the while I'm like WEVE BEEN BROKEN INTO.  the first thing Ii came to was like passports chris, and she said she had hers and josh's.  the strange thing was the pearls where still there, our lap top was still there, my camera still there, harddrives cash cellphones check book all tthings we could consider valuable.  messed up huh?  i walk to the window and see one of the bars missing, I'm like yeah somebody could fit through that, and we see the bent bar chillen on the bedroom floor.  My sister is just like I swear I locked the doors and we find the door was still wide open.  thanks dick now we got to sleep with  mosquitos in our room.  we called our cousins who are on busineness in europe and gave them the bad news.  this sucks.

so i'm looking through traveling pictures, and I really with I could be there, to feel that whole greatness of newness that only comes with soaking it in.

my best friend is in italy, he wrote me a short comment saying is internet didn't work, but that he was on wifi in his 15th century student building.  wow amazing.  how awesome.  and I came to koreea...

but the beautiful people have changed my life, and Ii will be witness to see how his life will be changing.  and when Ii see him a year and a half will have passed, and Ii don't think i've spent that much t ime apart from him since the 1st grade.  crazy huh?  I guess its the same with neuscrill, he was like my first friend. goodness gracious life is an amazing thing. 

so like blogs are great I think.   like I was able to reply to a blog and earnestly be there for a friend when I had no idea about the dealings he was facing.  ive read have a voice, and even the inner quiet one that is the subconsciouis needs to let go through a form.  and seeing my name said being missed makes me feel significant, even though sadness is not so appreciation is love and love is life.  love love think about it loving love you've got an unbeatable pair.

but this brotha sometimes feels lonely, and it didnt help when my mom was like you must be the happiest kid, i'm trying to give it up to her saying yeah I'm happy mom, but then shes like then hopefully soon you'll have a girlfriend and reeally be the happiest boy alive.  anyways she was saying she was the happiest mom alive because she had me, my sister, and josh ( but me more) hahah keu keu keu.  probably the baby WOULD say that huh.  anyways even though she had a rough life, shes happy now because she raised a good family, I hope I can be that caring and loving to my family someday.  but man pastor christian is all up on saying WAIT and i'm doing all i can to ask around at my brothers looking for a side that makes not not so bad.  its tough yo

anyways I had my gibson tuned up today, and got a soft case for it.  max did youtake your classical? my sister and josh leave for thailand and cambodia the day after tomorrow, and I just looked at a bunch of pictures on hannahs flickr and the most amazing shot of pat setting up a tripod in the rice fields of china, amazing.  anyway hows thi live journal thing anyways?  blogspot better?  meh I got accepted to hongdae!

welcome. 

How exciting..?  because I havent checked my facebook in days, and I looked to a page full of such encouraging words.  Thank you all.  

I wish I had more to say.  I wrote two good emails that havee just been waiting to be written.  My mom, sister, and her boyfriend are here.  Where staying at my cousin richards, who i've been to shy to call all year, turns out we know like a bunch of the same people on some sort of level, and hes like older than my sister toooooooo.

So my sis and josh are alseep, and I finally get some time on the computer.  I've got korean class in gangnam at 1145, and i've still go to do my homework which Ii read the passage, one of tthem, which is sitting open on my bed at my dads place. 

Wow its been difficult discovering the truth.  I was at norae bang and killed it with bridge over troubled water (in the good way) ,  then I went to mcedees to meet some of my brotheers and sistassss, then proceeded to hongdae and went sorta drinking / dancing with josh his mn friend hwos out here, his gf, my sister, MOM, aunt and uncle at a old rock cafe havivng fun to loud music.  How awewsome.  which turned out to a little more on t he drirnking park after my mom, uncle, and aunt left.  Proceeded to go clubbing, which has beeeeeennnnnnn so long which a crowd slowly moved in around 12 ish, man this ninght started young.  how could I could barely get a dance?  but whatever its not my style.  went to norae bang again, proceeded to get into an argument cause I was getting poed by my sister and josh bickering, procedeed to screaming into a cry yelling at the last bit of unforgiveness Ii had in my dad.  and as how turning the writing has turned, thats how the mood must have felt and I cried on my sisters shoulder, and Ii was sad because i took me being drunk to bring it out.  but no  i dont avoid confrontations at all costs, thats why I spoke up to put a stop to their stupid argument..  I think i'm healthy.  and now I do see my dad in a different light, a lighter light.  where I do understand, that he cant come out to the family dinners because he is shy, and unconfortable.  that he does try and show his love, but he didn't have a father to show him any, so his emotions are hard to read.  he does care and he does love me.  I understsand now.  and I'm thankful for it.

so Ii got accepted to hongdae..! yeahyer!  and that means i'm commiting more than FOUR years to korea... oh my...

and class is in koreean, and tallking about traditional art is going to use a crazy amount of hcinese characters, and like omGGG.  but josh has been doing a  lot of talkin about the potential of being bilingual, and I 'm thinking, okay set your pride down, your gonna need some money yo.

and the sign at bukhan mountain read conseve natural resources, hhaha i understand josh.

my mom, i've never seen this thin, and shes in shape, at a healthy weight, and strong.  she was going up that trail without a problem, and I the young buck was holding down the tail...i wasnt struggling or nothing...seriusly haha

hmm i'll crash now.  peace!